Burying my dead.

Ducki · Post by **Ducki** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 12:15 pm 0

All the best for the trip Bog. I'm glad you found the courage to do this.

Bog · Post by **Bog** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 12:49 pm 0

It's been a bit of a decision, really. Sorry about the slightly self-pitying tone of the initial post, but I shan't edit it down.

It's been a bit of a thing in my head ever since it happenned, and I hope that going there and saying "Bye" will let me stop being fucked in the head over it - 'cause I am a bit.

Thanks for the words of support, guys - it might sound silly, but in a way I'm posting about it so I can't chicken out. Human brains - wonky bloody things.

TheGoodbyeGirl · Post by **TheGoodbyeGirl** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 12:49 pm 0

*hugs*

Ratsoap · Post by **Ratsoap** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 12:53 pm 0

Best wishes man, hope it goes alright.

zip accident · Post by **zip accident** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 2:44 pm 0

Hi, I've barely seen your photograph here, and I don't think you've seen mine at all.

A thought came to me, would it help to name and glorify the fallen (not all 3K and odd (hope I got that right, I'm not taking much notice of the statistics), just the ones you knew)?

You could do it in this thread, or anyhow else you liked.

Best Wishes.

lowey · Post by **lowey** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 4:35 pm 0

*hugs*

Sounds like it's definitely the best thing you can do, you'll never be able to move on properly otherwise. I had to do something similar (on a much smaller scale) myself when a close friend from school died of cancer while I was studying for my christmas exams in my second year of uni. Because of the exams and lack of money I couldn't make it back to Notts to go to the funeral and it wasn't until about 2 years later that I managed to make it to his grave to say goodbye. Someone had left a model of The Enterprise (he was a huge Star Trek fan) on his grave and, up until then, the fact he'd gone hadn't really sunk in properly. Funny how an event that happened so long ago can go almost un-noticed until something makes you realise it was real and they're not coming back. It hurts, but it's all part of the process.

Good luck mate.

mamemeister · Post by **mamemeister** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 5:39 pm 0

*hugs*

merman · Post by **merman** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 5:51 pm 0

HUGS for you, big Bog man, take care.

Stuart B · Post by **Stuart B** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 6:04 pm 0

*hugs* matey

Clear horizons and speedy check-in for you.

piku · Post by **piku** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 6:13 pm 0

Bog wrote:It's been a bit of a decision, really. Sorry about the slightly self-pitying tone of the initial post, but I shan't edit it down.

Don't be, we understand...

really.

Thanks for the words of support, guys - it might sound silly, but in a way I'm posting about it so I can't chicken out. Human brains - wonky bloody things.

Yeah, they are. Irritating, isn't it

Go do your thing, but try not to feel guilty about being alive, it wasn't your decision to make and you weren't responsible. Enjoy your life, you do good things in it

Dax · Post by **Dax** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 6:20 pm 0

Bog wrote: It's been a bit of a thing in my head ever since it happenned, and I hope that going there and saying "Bye" will let me stop being fucked in the head over it - 'cause I am a bit. .

Believe that it will and it will. You will have done the one thing remaining that you *can* do that you feel you must.

And, yeah, Mort has paid a visit to my family - last year when my postings dropped to nought, so I know the pain.

Gutting, isn't it?

grue · Post by **grue** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 6:26 pm 0

Go there and with each tear you shed curse the ones who are to blame.

*hugs*

piku · Post by **piku** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 6:32 pm 0

grue wrote:Go there and with each tear you shed curse the ones who are to blame.

Nah, turning grief into hatred never helps. Doing something productive and worthwhile is much more soothing.

Let go completely... but never forget.

grue · Post by **grue** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 7:29 pm 0

piku wrote:Nah, turning grief into hatred never helps. Doing something productive and worthwhile is much more soothing.

Why then endure their hatred, their wars, their terror? I think it helps, it steels you so you'll be able to bump back when the time comes. Turn the other cheek? No sir. Headbutt them.

illlogickill · Post by **illlogickill** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 7:47 pm 0