Burying my dead.

t0ne · Post by **t0ne** » Mon Oct 30, 2006 9:05 pm 0

*hugs*
Good luck fella.

TwistedScrote · Post by **TwistedScrote** » Tue Oct 31, 2006 2:08 pm 0

*HUGS FOR THE BIG GUY*

Hope this helps heal ya fella......

FWIW.... I'm also damn glad you are still around. This place would be poorer without you. And I reckon if your Sue read that line about dying with those poor people... she'd give you a clip round the ear!

You didn't die, because you WEREN'T meant to.

*BIG PLAYFUL HEADLOCK!*

fred_zen · Post by **fred_zen** » Tue Oct 31, 2006 3:09 pm 0

Don't apologize for your post, everything is right with it. I feel so sorry for your loss. *hugs*

Bog · Post by **Bog** » Tue Oct 31, 2006 5:35 pm 0

fred_zen wrote:Don't apologize for your post, everything is right with it. I feel so sorry for your loss. *hugs*

Actually, if I'm being brutally honest, I'm sick of hearing my own fucking self whine about this. I've just utterly failed to get over it and move on, and there are people who're in far worse situations over it than I am. I'm hoping that this will finally get me to let it the fuck go.

Blurgh... anyhooo... thanks again, all...

andy · Post by **andy** » Wed Nov 01, 2006 3:56 am 0

Bog wrote:Actually, if I'm being brutally honest, I'm sick of hearing my own fucking self whine about this. I've just utterly failed to get over it and move on, and there are people who're in far worse situations over it than I am. I'm hoping that this will finally get me to let it the fuck go.

Blurgh... anyhooo... thanks again, all...

For what it's worth coming from someone that you don't know, you're doing the right thing, Bog - and though I think I know how you mean it (and to some extent, how you feel), whine is not the right word. That could apply with people in my 'off-line life' and to many posts on many forums (and has caused me to leave even this fluffy place for long periods of time), but it is not something that has ever come to mind whilst reading one of your pained and heartfelt posts. Oh, and for the record, I don't 'do' platitudes!

As for coping or 'letting go', as I am certain you understand, we are all different. I and some that I know or have known struggle with the nightmares of a 'past' that's well over thirty years old. We each have or are really fighting it... and some people have shown an inability to get that, forcing their selfish, narrow-minded, blinkered and ignorant opinion that one should 'just move on'. Hey, if we could, we would! More recently, a little over a year ago now, I lost someone dear to me. After too many near-misses and a fight worthy of someone a quarter of her age, after a month in hospital following an operation, just when things were looking up, my gran suddenly passed away. She was my rock and with my friends, she was my family - and one way or another, whether she always knew it or not, kept me alive through the years. There's still a dark, painful void there. It hurts so much. Others seemed to have moved on... quickly. Does that make me 'wrong'?

We're just different, right?

That has to be the most that I've talked about it! I hope that it helps to somehow substantiate what I was trying to say, rather than seem all 'me, me, me' or distracting from your feelings and the sentiment that I attempt to offer. If it's the latter, I am genuinely sorry.

Looking at talking of things, this may again seem odd; but you're among a few people on the forums that I am glad to see do so, Bog. As with a very special person in that off-line life, I sit with wonder at such capability and genuinely hope that I may one day do so (as some want me to do). Hmm, I guess I kinda started above, eh?

There's so much more to say - but I'll at least wait 'til I can find some clarity.

Whichever way your feelings (about anything) go, do keep posting, Bog. Between your style of writing, intelligent thought and that great enthusiasm that's so frequently evident, you've got one guy that greatly values your contribution. A little look around the forums will show that I'm not alone, either.

Hope and hugs for you, Man.

MrsSnake · Post by **MrsSnake** » Wed Nov 01, 2006 4:01 am 0

*HUGE HUGS*

[Feeblez] · Post by **[Feeblez]** » Wed Nov 01, 2006 4:03 am 0

*BOG SIZED HUGS*

M · Post by M » Thu Nov 02, 2006 8:13 pm 0

Bog wrote:
fred_zen wrote:Don't apologize for your post, everything is right with it. I feel so sorry for your loss. *hugs*
Actually, if I'm being brutally honest, I'm sick of hearing my own fucking self whine about this. I've just utterly failed to get over it and move on, and there are people who're in far worse situations over it than I am. I'm hoping that this will finally get me to let it the fuck go.

Blurgh... anyhooo... thanks again, all...

No, you haven't failed to get over it - you are in a process, a long process and the journey to say good-bye is, I think, a very important part of that. Take all the time necessary, whine all you need to. It's all part of moving on.

Madrid really messed me up - it changed my outlook on life - and I didn't lose any friends... I can only imagine what you are going through.

*Hugs*

Jmar · Post by **Jmar** » Fri Nov 03, 2006 2:44 am 0

Long time no see/chat.
I hope your visit gives you some closure.
I hope you can find some kind of peace.
I was talkin to Bluey the other day about how much hate, hurt and vengance can mess you up. And how letting things go and moving on (in a way forgiveness) can be such a feckin relief. easier said then done you know I know.. but still... I think... no belive it can happen.

Twitch says meow purr.